"The problem here is a totalitarian uniformity, a cult-like mentality such that even allies are enemies if they fail to follow the Exact Party Line. " - Phyllis Chesler

Monday, August 31, 2009

Paprika, Ted Kennedy, Esophogeal Cancer

Three things that are current in my life...

My neighbor is yet again heavily using the paprika and I can smell it strongly as I sit at my desk, in my bedroom thinking about what and how I will write this post. I'd rather smell my yummy coffee I just brewed, but that darn paprika is stronger.

At work this week I had the unfortunate chance of listening to two older ladies in their 70's fawn over Ted Kennedy and damn all the people who dare bring up Mary Jo. These bitties went on to say how Kennedy was framed. They damned those of us who actually care that he killed another human being. They actually said "All the good things he did for the poor completely make up for that incident."

WOW! You get a free pass for murdering another human. A woman. Going over a bridge and into water and leaving her there...saying nothing for hours and hours, never reporting the "incident" during all those hours because of all the good things you do after.

Hmmm...how many people get that time to do all those good things for the poor after killing an innocent woman in order to erase that one blip on your record?

I bet these same bitties are stringing up Madoff in their minds of course. He should rot in jail forever right? The man stole money and lives...but oh wait a second...these bitties are for Obamacare, which is socialistic, which means they can't be into capitalism, which means that they couldn't possibly be so angry and vengful over someone stealing money from the rich, right?

Of course I could never say these things to these bitties, one a german national who was a teen during Hitlers rule and bitched to me how horrid it was to lose so many family members due to the war. OK tell it to my dead incinerated family members that yours let Hitler kill, and the other a former bunny. (And yes it is bunny in the way you think. And no I'm not going to put it in writing here so it can be searchable and found online, traced back to me.) I'd say these things if I could but you cannot speak with crazy people who are emotional and irrational and don't use logic. You will just be shouted down. So here they appear on my blog.

I have a friend who was just dx'd with late stage esophogeal cancer. I'm (along with other friends) trying to get her into Sloan Kettering with any connection I have. As much as I'm against Obamacare, I do realize that our system isn't great and needs to be made better. She has insurance but her insurance isn't accepted at Sloan Kettering, the place where all the cancer studies are done and most of the best cancer/oncologists are, and where she feels she would do best. Thank god and his angels that I have a friend who's son in law in an oncologist who knows this one doctor at Sloan and he agreed to get my friends test results under his nose to see if he'd get her admitted and get a patient advocate to help her get her insurance accepted there for her treatment. I ask for your prayers. If you'd like her name for the prayers please email me.

Learn The Facts About Israel

Meet Marcus Wilder, author and fact-teller as he speaks to Israel National Radio about his new book.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Sisel Anyone?

It was suggested to me by a reputable source to get my kitties a sisel scratching post to get them to stop using my bed as the scratching post :(


We've had it for two days now. These photos were taken on the 2nd day. As you can see it's a hit with KC.










Friday, August 28, 2009

I ♥ Steven Crowder -- The Real Astroturf!!

I'd love to be a little soap right now!

The MASSes Are Asses!

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Home Schoolers Against Current Healthcare Legislation

Another reason to oppose the healthcare legislation...and any government involvement in our personal lives.


“Please oppose H.R. 3200, the ‘America’s Affordable Health Choices Act of 2009.’ In a time of economic hardship, the federal government should not take on a program that will double our national debt. I am also opposed to H.R. 3200’s creation of home visitation/early education programs through grants to the states. Parents, not federal or state officials, should make child-rearing decisions for their young children. Additionally, H.R. 3200 will expand the federal government’s role and will interfere with medical decisions between me and my doctor, as well as use my tax dollars to pay for someone else’s abortion.”

"It would significantly impact parental rights and early childhood education. While this bill is being promoted as a way to reform health care and help Americans, it should be opposed because it would:

Spend billions of dollars to allow the federal government to fund home visitation programs, where government officials would enter homes and monitor children and instruct parents in how to raise their children; Encourage states to pressure families to enroll their children in these home visitation programs;
Put the federal government in the healthcare business, resulting in loss of competition, loss of patient choice, and loss of patient freedom; Require all health insurance plans, whether offered by a private company or the government, to include controversial “essential benefits,” which courts or the Secretary of Health and Human Services may determine to include medical procedures which businesses and taxpayers may oppose on philosophical and religious grounds; and Increase the size and power of the federal government."


Go to the homeschooling site for more talking points on opposing the government involvoment in healthcare legislation.


Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Tuesday's Accidental Text

On Monday afternoon I received a text from a number in Ohio. A number I don't know from a person I don't know. But what a nice surprise. This photo was sent to me.

OH SO HOT! The subject line was: Look at our new teacher. DAMN.

I agree.

So if you are the teacher from Ohio in this photo...I'd love to hear from you. I did ask the texter about the photo but past telling me that they were given the wrong cell number and LOLing me about thanking them for the picture of the good looking guy, I haven't been able to squeeze anymore info out.

Seeking HOT teacher from Ohio from this photo. HUMMINA HUMMINA!

Monday, August 24, 2009

In Support Of Whole Foods


The Brown Shirts are protesting against Whole Foods because the CEO wrote an article that was not in favor of the current healthcare legislation and GASP GASP he wrote about what he does for his employees and how he thinks that could really work for us as a country. Do a simple google search and you will see the stories about the CEO of Whole Foods and his recent article and ideas.
(just one lead on this current story)

So last night after work I made a special trip the Whole Foods in Columbus Circle and spent $24 on 9 items, many of them on sale, and then got on the longest check out line ever in the history of the world just so I could spend my hard earned money to show support for this store, their CEO and the philosophy they put into practice every single day.



Columbus Circle at night just outside of Whole Foods Market.




Me being silly in the subway at a movie poster for some new Bruce Willis movie. (I think.)






Sunday, August 23, 2009

How Many Times Have You Been In Love?

For just a short period of time on this blog I'm changing the subject from politics to relationships and love. After all I do say on my header:

"One 30 something year-old single woman's thoughts, epiphanies and pitfalls of dating, relationships & the men she has dated. And many many rants on stupid people and their completely hypocritical political views."

Love and politics...two scary topics if you ask me!

So answering the question with 100% honesty what would your number be?

I'm sure I loved a handful of men, but to answer the question about being in-love I can only honestly say once. And I'm not with that person.

It's hard for me to know this. It's hard to live with the realization that the one person I was in-love with also brings harsh memories for me. And while I search for the next and hopefully final man I fall in-love with, the only comparable memories I have bring me back to the very sad ones too, which I choose not to relive or think about. A bit of a catch 22 for me.

As a spiritual person I truly believe that living in the past is like carrying around the dead, and where our thoughts are so are we. I pull my spirit back to me.

How many times have you been in-love?

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Self-Determination

Using Your Power

Our lives are defined by the decisions we make each day. When we choose one option over another, whether we are selecting a restaurant or considering a cross-country move, we shape our lives. The decision-making process can be empowering, allowing us to enjoy the benefits of self-determination. Yet it can also be a source of anxiety because decisions force us to face the possibility of dissatisfaction and inner conflict. As a result, many of us opt to avoid making decisions by allowing others to make them for us. We consequently turn our power over to spouses, relatives, friends, and colleagues, granting them the stewardship of our lives that is ours by right. Though the decisions we must make are often difficult, we grow more self-sufficient and secure each time we trust ourselves enough to choose.

Ultimately, only you can know how the options before you will impact your daily life and your long-term well-being. Within you lies the power to competently weigh the advantages and disadvantages of each selection. Even if you feel incapable of making a decision, your inner wisdom and your intuitive mind will give you sound counsel if you have faith in yourself. Try to come to your own conclusions before seeking the guidance of others, and even then, treat their suggestions as supplementary information rather than votes to be tallied. Before making your choice, release your fear of wrong decisions. Perceived mistakes can lead you down wonderful and unexpected paths that expose you to life-changing insights. If you can let go of the notion that certain choices are utterly right while others are entirely wrong, you will be less tempted to invite others to take the reigns of your destiny.

When your choices are your own, you will be more likely to accept and be satisfied with the outcome of those choices. Your decisions will be a pure reflection of your desires, your creativity, your awareness, and your power. Since you understand that you must live with and take responsibility for your decisions, you will likely exercise great care when coming to conclusions. As you learn to make informed and autonomous choices, you will gain the freedom to consciously direct the flow of your life without interference.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Air America - A Charming Liar



Your messiah sold you out kool-aid drinkers.

Of The People? Oh Really?

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Monday, August 17, 2009

Proud Black Conservative



And listen to this man's voice. It's really fantastic!

Saturday, August 15, 2009

If You Like Your Lunch No One Will Make You Change It


Click to see this in full view.
Sadly this is the next step even though this is satire...now. I mean really isn't every person entitled to the same great food?

Friday, August 14, 2009

But What If I Get Sick?

I was asked today what I would do if I got really sick, like was diagnosed with diabetes or some other chronic condition...I mean isn't it horrible that I don't have my goverment to pay for what I will need to help me.

HOGWASH.

That's such a totally misleading argument.

So only the government can help me? I can't work and pay for what I need? The current system can't be tweeked to bring down the costs of healthcare making it something I can afford.

Why should anything be free? Seriously ask yourself the following question: should what you do for a living be regulated so that you can get that service for free or almost nothing? Why is it more fair for you to get that service for nothing while the person offering that service has to scrape by on the lowly salary. It's not fair or even-handed at all. It's the exact flip flop.

All that does is make more cash for the person seeking the service by taking away the cash from the person offering the service. Still one person has less. How is that fair?

And if you still think that the British system is the cat's meow read this news:

A sample of recent headlines from the three leading British newspapers, the Times, the Daily Mail and the Telegraph, bear out Mr. Hannan's warning:

• NHS targets 'may have lead to 1,200 deaths' in Mid-Staffordshire

• 11 serious errors a day in NHS surgery

• War hero refused treatment by NHS

• Patients forced to live in agony after NHS refuses to pay for painkilling injections

• Patients with suspected cancer forced to wait so NHS targets can be hit

• NHS dentists play as patients wait



Here's More Health Care Nonsense.

What The MSM Refused To Show you in New Hampshire



Truth!

Um... Takes One To Know One?

Obama's 'green jobs czar' worked with terror founder

They call regular Americans that show up to voice dissent and to question their elected officials "political terrorists" and the mob.

Is this a case of "takes one to know one"? Or just typical transference?

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Congressman Kevin Brady Explains the Obama Health Care Bill



Look no screaming and shouting boys and girls. They're listening to the bill being explained in detail. Hmmm

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

How About Actually Listening To Our Concerns

http://www2.tbo.com/content/2009/aug/06/protests-passions-roiling-town-hall-meeting-health/news-metro/

Fox news showed the video to this story listed above.

Congress members are so upset that people are so pissed off that they come and shout "Kill the bill" and "Read the bill" and for these chants we are called a mob.

OK we are a mob...a mob of informed concerned citizens. In this case a lot of OLD PEOPLE.

They are afraid of OLD PEOPLE! OH BROTHER!

I have a really good idea to all the Democratic Congress Members: LISTEN.

Come to your home towns and instead of demanding to be heard, come and say to us, "Tell me what you object to in this bill and I'll bring your concerns to Congress and we'll make the changes."

It's so so so simple!

Monday, August 10, 2009

Turn In The White House

To ask for people to send in emails and websites of those expressing their first amendment rights appears to be a violation of 5 U.S.C. § 552a of the U.S. Code:


“maintain no record describing how any individual exercises rights guaranteed by the First Amendment unless expressly authorized by statute or by the individual about whom the record is maintained or unless pertinent to and within the scope of an authorized law enforcement activity.”

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Amazing Documentation

http://www.lookingattheleft.com/2009/08/pelosi-astroturf-healthcare/

Go here now and really look at this amazing blog's documentation. Please pass the link around to everyone.

Before going to that great link watch this video through. And then juxtipose it with what you will see on that really great blog link I provided.

Update On Man Attacked By SEIU THUGS

Pelosi's Fake Outrage




Plastic Pelosi is outraged at swastikas protesting her and her cronies.
She made lying statements that people showed up with the offensive symbol and completely took the poster out of context. Clearly there is a woman holding a sign with a line through the swastika which means...UM...I dunno...perhaps NANCY it means NO. The line through an item is an international symbol for NOT or NO.
So she's so outraged at this but clearly isn't at the below photos. LYING LIAR PIECE OF SHIT. I swear we should stop listening to them, stop debating them, because they are not honest partners and just call them the lying liar, fucktards that they are and mobilize the smart people of America to speak out and keep speaking out until they are politically squashed to nothing!




Saturday, August 8, 2009

Great Video, With Better Audio Of What Happened After The SEIU Attacked The Black Man Selling Items At Town Hall Meeting

Watch carefully and listen carefully...you'll see the camera operator getting hit too.

The White House Loses All Credibility

If they even had any left, and certainly not with me, they have lost that too.

A WH that awards the Presidential Medal of Freedom to Mary Robinson, former United Nations High Commissioner for Human Rights who endorsed Palestinian violence as legitimate political activity, and the outrageous equating of the Holocaust to the suffering of the Palestinians has no moral authority whatsoever!

Their recent statements through their mouthpieces : Pelosi and Reid and their other ass lickers that everyday people, your parents and grandparents speaking out at townhall meetings are mobs is laughable ESPECIALLY in context.

CONTEXT a word the Obamanites like to use all the time.

So let's use their language shall we. CONTEXT.

Up is down and down is up in the current world we are being forced to live in with this monster stupid people voted for. We MUST get this man out of office. IMPEACH! IMPEACH IMPEACH! NOW NOW NOW!

Meet Sonja Schmidt



Hat Tip James T.

Friday, August 7, 2009

Response to SEIU Attack on Black Man at Town hall

FLAG THIS! FISHY BIOTCHES

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SEIU Attacks Tea Party Protesters... One A Black Man




While we are so worried about what they are claiming us to be, "a mob", here's the truth about who is employing mob tactics.

To see more of the story go to Gateway Pundit.



Here's a better video of the same event for Audio purposes and you'll also see a woman hit the camera operator.

Here's What Is Fishy!

The National Center for Policy Analysis put this out. BRILLIANT!

Facts...instead of ideology...what a concept eh?


by Scott Atlas

Medical care in the United States is derided as miserable compared to health care systems in the rest of the developed world. Economists, government officials, insurers and academics alike are beating the drum for a far larger government rôle in health care. Much of the public assumes their arguments are sound because the calls for change are so ubiquitous and the topic so complex. However, before turning to government as the solution, some unheralded facts about America's health care system should be considered.

Fact No. 1: Americans have better survival rates than Europeans for common cancers.[1] Breast cancer mortality is 52 percent higher in Germany than in the United States, and 88 percent higher in the United Kingdom. Prostate cancer mortality is 604 percent higher in the U.K. and 457 percent higher in Norway. The mortality rate for colorectal cancer among British men and women is about 40 percent higher.

Fact No. 2: Americans have lower cancer mortality rates than Canadians.[2] Breast cancer mortality is 9 percent higher, prostate cancer is 184 percent higher and colon cancer mortality among men is about 10 percent higher than in the United States.

Fact No. 3: Americans have better access to treatment for chronic diseases than patients in other developed countries.[3] Some 56 percent of Americans who could benefit are taking statins, which reduce cholesterol and protect against heart disease. By comparison, of those patients who could benefit from these drugs, only 36 percent of the Dutch, 29 percent of the Swiss, 26 percent of Germans, 23 percent of Britons and 17 percent of Italians receive them.

Fact No. 4: Americans have better access to preventive cancer screening than Canadians.[4] Take the proportion of the appropriate-age population groups who have received recommended tests for breast, cervical, prostate and colon cancer:

Nine of 10 middle-aged American women (89 percent) have had a mammogram, compared to less than three-fourths of Canadians (72 percent).
Nearly all American women (96 percent) have had a pap smear, compared to less than 90 percent of Canadians.
More than half of American men (54 percent) have had a PSA test, compared to less than 1 in 6 Canadians (16 percent).
Nearly one-third of Americans (30 percent) have had a colonoscopy, compared with less than 1 in 20 Canadians (5 percent).
Fact No. 5: Lower income Americans are in better health than comparable Canadians. Twice as many American seniors with below-median incomes self-report "excellent" health compared to Canadian seniors (11.7 percent versus 5.8 percent). Conversely, white Canadian young adults with below-median incomes are 20 percent more likely than lower income Americans to describe their health as "fair or poor."[5]

Fact No. 6: Americans spend less time waiting for care than patients in Canada and the U.K. Canadian and British patients wait about twice as long - sometimes more than a year - to see a specialist, to have elective surgery like hip replacements or to get radiation treatment for cancer.[6] All told, 827,429 people are waiting for some type of procedure in Canada.[7] In England, nearly 1.8 million people are waiting for a hospital admission or outpatient treatment.[8]

Fact No. 7: People in countries with more government control of health care are highly dissatisfied and believe reform is needed. More than 70 percent of German, Canadian, Australian, New Zealand and British adults say their health system needs either "fundamental change" or "complete rebuilding."[9]

Fact No. 8: Americans are more satisfied with the care they receive than Canadians. When asked about their own health care instead of the "health care system," more than half of Americans (51.3 percent) are very satisfied with their health care services, compared to only 41.5 percent of Canadians; a lower proportion of Americans are dissatisfied (6.8 percent) than Canadians (8.5 percent).[10]

Fact No. 9: Americans have much better access to important new technologies like medical imaging than patients in Canada or the U.K. Maligned as a waste by economists and policymakers naïve to actual medical practice, an overwhelming majority of leading American physicians identified computerized tomography (CT) and magnetic resonance imaging (MRI) as the most important medical innovations for improving patient care during the previous decade.[11] [See the table.] The United States has 34 CT scanners per million Americans, compared to 12 in Canada and eight in Britain. The United States has nearly 27 MRI machines per million compared to about 6 per million in Canada and Britain.[12]

Fact No. 10: Americans are responsible for the vast majority of all health care innovations.[13] The top five U.S. hospitals conduct more clinical trials than all the hospitals in any other single developed country.[14] Since the mid-1970s, the Nobel Prize in medicine or physiology has gone to American residents more often than recipients from all other countries combined.[15] In only five of the past 34 years did a scientist living in America not win or share in the prize. Most important recent medical innovations were developed in the United States.[16] [See the table.]

Conclusion. Despite serious challenges, such as escalating costs and the uninsured, the U.S. health care system compares favorably to those in other developed countries.

Scott W. Atlas, M.D., is a senior fellow at the Hoover Institution and a professor at the Stanford University Medical Center. A version of this article appeared previously in the February 18, 2009, Washington Times.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Health Care Quiz/Questions

I'm lifting this from Townhall.com. It's so perfect and I want you to see it. Then please go visit them and read their other articles and show them some bloggy love.


Dear Mr. Obama (info@barackobama.com):

I’m sick right now with a bad case of poison ivy. I’m not telling you this because I want the government’s help. I’m telling you I’m sick because it explains why I have been sitting at home for days and, therefore, have had time to read the first 500 pages of the new health care bill.

I had no intention of reading the health care bill until a friend of mine – in his second year of medical school – sent me a list of statements about the bill. These statements have been floating around the internet so you may have seen them. After I read the bill, I concluded that the majority of the statements seemed correct. I’ve rephrased many of these statements and put them in the form of several dozen true/false statements.

I would like for you to take the time to answer these questions for two reasons. First, I’ve spent a lot of time reading the health care bill. Second, and more importantly, the U.S. Congress has not spent much time reading the bill.

On Page 22, I saw some language, which suggested that the bill mandates audits of all employers that choose to self-insure. Can you tell me whether that is a) True or b) False?

On Page 29, I saw what appeared to be an admission that health care will be rationed under this new plan. Can you tell me whether that is a) True or b) False?

On Page 30, I discovered that a government committee will be established to decide what treatments and benefits I get. However, unlike an insurer, I see no evidence that there will be a process to appeal their decisions. Can you tell me whether that is a) True or b) False?

On Page 50, I read some non-discrimination language, which seems to suggest that all non-US citizens, illegal or not, will be provided with free health care services. Can you tell me whether that is a) True or b) False?

On Page 59, I saw some language suggesting that the federal government will have access to all individual bank accounts for health-related electronic funds transfers. Can you tell me whether that is a) True or b) False?

On Page 124, I learned that no private company can sue the government for price-fixing. Furthermore, no "judicial review" is permitted against a complete government monopoly. Can you tell me whether that is a) True or b) False?

On Page 127, I read that the government will now set wages for physicians. Can you tell me whether that is a) True or b) False?

On Page 149, couched in esoteric “contribution” language, it looks like any employer with a payroll of $400,000 or more, who does not offer the public option, pays an 8% tax on payroll as a penalty. This penalty would go a long way towards destroying the private system. It would also seem to violate your campaign promises – specifically those you made during debates I watched. If I read this correctly, it appears you looked me – via the camera – in the eye and lied. So, Barry, can you tell me whether that is a) True or b) False?

On Page 203, I read a very strange sentence: "The tax imposed under this section shall not be treated as tax imposed by this chapter for purposes of determining the amount of any credit under this chapter." I know this is supposed to be a true/false test but do you think calling a “tax” by some other name means it is no longer a tax? This seems to be a persistent theme in this bill. Please explain. Attach extra sheets of paper if necessary.

Page 272 has some of the most esoteric language of the health care bill. But it looks like the government plans to ration health care for cancer patients. Can you tell me whether that is a) True or b) False?

On Page 280, I read that hospitals will be penalized for what the government deems to be “preventable re-admissions.” Once again, I know this is supposed to be a true/false test but, please, tell me this: How is the government in a better position (than a health care professional) to determine what constitutes a “preventable re-admission?”

Page 317 suggests that doctors will soon be prohibited from owning and investing in health care companies. Can you tell me whether that is a) True or b) False?

The following page suggests that hospitals can no longer expand without government approval. Can you tell me whether that is a) True or b) False?

On Page 429 things get very disturbing unless, of course, I am reading this wrong. It appears that an advance care planning consultation will be used to dictate treatment as a patient's health deteriorates. This can include an order for end-of-life plans – specifically, an order from the government. Can you tell me whether that is a) True or b) False?

It really bothers me, Mr. President, that I can learn a lot more about pending legislation from an internet chat room than I can from my elected representatives. It also bothers me that I have to read pending bills because, in all likelihood, my representatives will not. Regardless, I want you to read this email carefully and answer all of my questions.

If you answer “true” – even to a single question - you will have lost any prospect of gaining my support. If you answer “false” to every question we can move on to pages 500 through1018.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

I Resist





Just waiting to have my blog shut down for my opposing views. I'm sure Angry and other kool-aid fucktards have already turned me in. God I never thought I'd live to see the day that anyone would be able to spin it in their mind that something like that in this country was ok under any circumstances.

Opposing views, disagreements listed as fishy and disinformation and suddenly that's a reason to turn you into your government. MY GOD where did these people grow up? In a Moscow KGB camp?

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Turning Neighbor Against Neighbor

The Obama Administration has asked for on the White House website for anyone to turn in links to any sites online that "give disinformation" about any of the proposals they are trying to ram through the Congress.

All I can say are the following few things:

  1. wake up Obama followers...this cannot be what you wanted. Please wake up from your cool-aid induced high and realize that those who disagree with Obama are not your enemy and that we pretty much all want the same things as you, we just completely disagree with the methods.
  2. Obama wants you to hate your neighbor and act like the Hitler youth, turning in your parents and friends and maybe even people you've never met, simply for writing their own analysis of the proposals that do not push his agenda and stated outcomes.
  3. And if you must turn in links of disinformation after reading my list I suggest you turn in whitehouse.gov The biggest offender of lying sack of shit crap ever to come across our country.

Go ahead and turn me in. I will not go quietly! I will use my freedom of speech to voice my concerns and disseminate information I agree with as it is my birth right as an American and don't you EVER forget that.

For all your anger and hatred toward George W. Bush and his policies, his administration never asked neighbors to turn on each other and spy and bring information on those who disagreed with him to his attention. And why should he or any government of ours do so.

If Obama has the truth on his side what would he need to do this for. Please wake up before it's too late.

Monday, August 3, 2009

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Think I Blew It

I went out again with the guy I mentioned in the last post. But I think I blew it. I do like him but I also think he is insecure and I have a hard time teasing and being playful with him without him taking it to heart.

The man is sweet and kind. But he is also obese. That's the truth of the matter. I think that it makes him sensitive. I've mentioned so many compliments but all I heard back in a moment from him was the words I mentioned when teasing him.

Look I'm 38 and anyone who knows anything about women that age knows that we have the hormones of an 18 year old boy around this time in our lives. It's been a long time since I liked a man enough to want to do the cha cha cha with...and even though he is heavy I was feeling it.

I had two yummy chocolate martinis and relaxed and let the night go where ever. If that wasn't enough for him to know I'm into him then he can go find some fat chick to work out his issues with.

I'm feeling a bit sad because I was excited to meet someone like him. But it's obvious when you send a text saying how are you today and you get zero response, it's over. Since we both have the same cell phone carrier I can see when he opens texts from me so I know it was read.

As I stated from the start on our calls, I am looking for a guy I can have fun with, be playful with and be light with. I think he has too many emotional issues which probably have manifested into his larger size.

I'm too pretty a woman, with a great brain to be stuck in this kind of thing.

UPDATE: OK this is why I hate dating. The newness freaks me out. I finally got a response. I half believe him, and perhaps he was sleepy when he checked his texts, and I saw that he did on my end...and the response was funny and cheery. OY!