Here's the deal peoples.........
I have a temper, I'm snarky and I'm opiniated... fuck off and get used to it.
I chatted a long time with a good blogger friend and I've really narrowed my frustration down. For me what it boils down to is respect or lack thereof.
I really am the kind of person who goes above and beyond for friends and family. No one has to ask me, I'll just do it.
Now many of my readers I think are the same way, which is why we bonded and why others have come and gone. I'm not going to mention the person but SHE knows who she is...for no reason went and did something really awesome for me. Didn't ask for didly in return. I know I can trust this person. I know her heart and soul is good. She didn't need to do what she did for me to know this...but it was just solidification.
On the other hand I have had far too many in my life whom I tried to forge friendships with. I've given free energy therapy sessions to them, their families...I've refused money, offered it on my time..given free classes. Now that's a business of mine, where I make some money, albeit not a lot and probably it's more a hobby to be honest...but still.
However when it came to be reciprical in nature if that at all, and rather something that might have even brought that same friend money by way of my posting an event on my blog, it was demanded of me that I not post my very own video of the night I spent out and I was accused of many things. Even so far as to contact youtube to have my own private videos I took myself, in a public place pulled down. Why? Because that person has a film production company and that person has a deal with youtube to film events and post for them and he felt I was somehow stealing from him.
What a crock of shit!
Forget, hey Lauren my cat is really sick...can you send healing energy please. Forget the free sessions I gave for hours in my home to said person's family.
Nope...it was all about this person, their company, their rights, even their lawyers words immediately IM'd to me.
I have to tell you all, that this type of situation handled in the rough manner that it was brought out the absolute worst in me. WORST.
I blog for fun. I haven't made a dime off my blog and never intended it for that purpose. I have a nice handful of subscribers and readers each day and that's about it folks.
Said person could not see the issue at hand...only had whatever was in their mind and always had something to say. NEVER listened. But then again that person NEVER listens to anyone. Is always ready for a quick retort. Never gives a rats as what anyone else has to say...that there might actually be some point there they never thought about that could make him stop and rethink whatever the issue is. NEVER. So why start now.
It's times like these that I go from zero -60 in 5 seconds flat. I just react...I show my temper, I get snarky and I tell the person to fuck off.
I don't think I honestly had a real friendship with this person to begin with. And as I read all of your blogs I see that many of you have a few close good friends and a ton of family you spend time with. And I understand why.
Your friendship online, blogging, has been so enourmous to me. I am ever so grateful. Because each of you have taken the time to know me, accept me and ask for nothing in return but friendship back.